fragile bubble

        Can't think of anything to avert and free myself from feeling of desolation, tonight my mind wanders somewhere. The heaven seems to express her sympathy through holding back her tiny twinkling stars. Writing is one of my way to escape loneliness and voice out my fears or hidden regrets. Sometimes i feel like a bubble so delicate and fragile, can burst anytime and fades into oblivion.

the pylon over night

Its two o'clock in the morning but it feels like eight in the morning. Ryan here beside me is drinking  hot coffee listening to a Christian song, the ladies behind me are chatting and laughing, its the usual pylon over night, but what makes the difference? it might the last pylon over night we will be spending together on dummy making.

It was really fun dancing and singing with them despite our tiresome activity, running through the infos of the graduates is quite agonizing and boring. It should be carefully done to avoid errors otherwise we will repeat the same process.

i know i'm tired but i just cant lull my self to sleep. In a little while the sun will start to rise giving way to a cold and wonderful dawn.

i need my feelings back

         
             I know its already quarter to twelve, and i'm the only person wide awake in this part of the city.i cant make myself fall into sleep, i'm worrying, and i don't know what have become of me now, perhaps because I've shut my doors for so long against emotions,this i know and am quite certain of.

taking a glance..

i always question what awaits me three years after, shall i be in the business industry as i have imagined myself years ago or i will become an addition to the already high number of people with high credentials yet working in a minimum wage just to support my daily needs. i have been bothered by this thought since last week when i saw my cousin in the sofa, sleeping soundly despite the deafening noise of the television. she graduated with honors in st. la Salle university at the age of 19. we'll, we really thought that its the beginning of her life's journey as a nurse earning huge as other nurses abroad do since our uncle promised to help her get her visa, but, we were very surprise one day that the demand for nurses abroad was rapidly declining.

sometimes i wonder what better chances do we have to prosper in life other than acquiring a diploma?

who can answer me? (i'll wait)